What I'm stuggling with





Ever since I was a little girl, my siblings have called me "princess".
Not in a kind, loving way, but in a condescending , "you're a brat and always get what you want" sort of way. And I will admit, for a long time I brushed it off, I didn't let it bother me.

But here I am at 30 years old, with siblings that still call me princess- mainly behind my back.

And why do I even care!?! Why am I struggling with this?

I guess because I've always wanted one of those families that were close. My best friend has two sisters. They are close in age and they are close. I mean, like the best of friends. And since the 7th grade, I've been jealous of that. I know I will never have that kind of relationship with my own sisters and brother, but I'd be happy with even a quarter of it.

I know that we are all so different, and I think that is a big part of it. Not to mention that my oldest sister and I are FOURTEEN years apart. We see each other for our kids birthdays and holidays through out the year, but that is about it. We smile, hug and then be on our way. But I am aware of the awkwardness that surrounds us. They all say that I am our parents "favorite", that my kids are the "favorite" but it's time to call BS on that.

  

 

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3 comments :

  1. My siblings and I aren't close either and I've envied friends with tight knit families for the longest... but now~ I don't really let it bother me anymore.

    In whatever case, if I was in your shoes I'd probably reply back with "All I need is a crown and for your ass to bow down." ;)

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  2. I think its good to write what you feel, maybe one of your siblings will read it and wish for the same:)))) Sending extra hugs! Just dropping in from The Google Friend Connect hop to follow via GFC:))

    Hugs
    Evelyn
    @ My Turn for us
    http://www.myturnforus.com/

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  3. OK, I didn't find your GFC button so I am following via Twitter and Pinterest:))))

    Hugs

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