{4} What are you afraid of

Day 4. What are you afraid of

Unfortunately, this was an easy one for me.

I am afraid of losing my family. 

I have been through a big loss before. 
And I'd be lying if I said I hadn't thought about it happening again. 

The day Will died we had been married exactly 1 year, 6 months. 
So when it came time for Travis and I to have been married that long,
I had a pit in my stomach.

The day Will died, Zachary was 9 months and 1 day old.
So when it came time for Tyler to hit that "milestone",
again, I was nervous.

Their are plenty more dates that I think about. 
Of course, the biggest being January 28th.
I always seem to wake up at 5 am on that morning,
because that is the time I woke up almost 10 years ago.
The day that my life changed forever. 

I'm not afraid of dying. I know where I will go when I die. 
But I hate the thought of my kids growing up without their dad. 
I hate the idea of my kids growing up without me. 
And I sure hate the idea of not having these amazing guys in my life. 


  1. That is one of my fears as well. I am sorry for the loss of your first husband, Kate.


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