Things are about to change

 Do you hate change as much as I do?I am flat out, not good with change. I try to be okay with it, but deep down, I'm not.And I have a BIG change that needs to be made.
I am overweight. I know, you are shocked, right? I've known it for years. I have not been healthy since Zachary was a baby. And lets face it, I didn't lose the weight then just because I was exercising and eating good.I mean, I was doing those things, but the main reason I lost weight was because my husband just died.  And I was stressed.  I have done Weight Watchers before and it worked when I was honest.Which a lot of the time I wasn't. I told myself I was comfortable with how I looked. But I wasn't.I told myself it happens after having babies. But it doesn't have to. I told myself I'd lose it after I was done having kids.And now I'm there.  

I am done having kids. 

I have no other excuse. 

I have to lose weight.

I want to lose weight.

I am not healthy, and I don't feel good in my own shoes. I get that I have a looong journey in front of me. I get that I didn't put this weight on overnight, and I will not lose it overnight.  I am not hoping to look like a runway model. I am not hoping to be a size 2.But I do want to be comfortable with myself. I do want to look in the mirror and like what I see. I want to be able to put on a pair of jeans that are not a size 18. I get that I will have to make a lot of changes in my life.And I'm sure I will have plenty of ups and downs. And I'm ready to get started.  

So coming this Wednesday I will start sharing my journey. and I hope you'll follow along.